LIFE

wake up, feed/change the baby, fein for percocet&oxy yet somehow fight the urge,play with baby, deactivate FB, update blog, talk to husband, plan more for the move of a lifetime, feed baby, look up pipes/bongs/hookahs, take nap, wake up ,feed / play/change baby, talk to matt, download music, ANXIETY, fight the urge to puke evewrwhere from stress, ignore the fact that my friends have stopped talking to me, take some headache meds ,  thats my day

hearts

away

All too often loud events and daily busyness cloud your vision of God. Take some time to slow down; let there be silence, let there be peace. Calm your mind and let your inner voice re-emerge from the silence. Allow yourself to see visions, allow yourself to dream dreams; and you may hear the voice of God reaching out to you.



we have decided to get the hell out of here !

update!

a qucik update since its been a long time since i logged on, my daughter is currently yelling at me right now lol
i get to pick up to my diploma this week
going to forks this weekend
photojournalism is what i have decided to do :)
i cant want to go on my vacation especcially excited about LA
a tattoo is in my near fututre
i miss my best friend JB very much esepcially today
im more than ready to finally buy a house
i have a wisdom tooth coming in
its finally sunny
forever young is my new fav song
i can update my blog for my cell yet i dont know how ha
i went off my anxiety meds with im strongly regretting now in a way but do to my past i hate taking pills
im more than done with 97% of the people in this town and all these fake ass "friends"
we bought this cool old bible and i LOVE it

and thats about it

HOPE

got art ?

i find this photo very beautiful, i have been considering alot in my life right now and im seriously considering doing photojournalism as a career, i know they dont make that much but its something that i think that i would love and be good at . and they say if you love your job that the money will come to you . i just have to find a school now maybe Seattle or something idk but i will figure it out. just a quick little update on whats going on thus far in my life and decisions  

over my head

this song sums up my emotions right about now. i feel like im just drowning in life and not really living it to the fullest ya know. i just feel so lost and constantly alone . i miss my best friend, i miss the people that were taking from me to soon, DJD it was so good seeing you last night come back soon.i study Buddhism in my spare time and  buddah once said " the answers are not in the sky the answers are in your heart" well i have looked in my heart and its all a mess, i know im supposed to look whole heartedly but what if my heart isnt whole anymore cause life has slowly been taking pieces away and i dont know how to get them back ? i guess i just have to take it one day at a time .

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All About The Tude

The remarkable thing is We have a Choice every day regarding the Attitude We will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past... We cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing We can do is play on the one string We have, and that is our Attitude...
And so it is with You, We are in charge of our Attitudes.
So..Wherever You go, no matter what the weather, always bring Your own Sunshine.

may 6th ;(

alex your time has come to soon and this day is so surreal im still numb
you were the life on the party and we had good times together at a few of our own.
your smile lit up the room and your laugh was contagious .
the last time we chilled outside of school we went to this one party
with winn hermansen and sam kellogg we were so gone lol
may you be in peace and say hey to shaun and destry for me <3
your forever in my heart and i will be seeing you again one day
and i hope you will be still smiling the way i remember :)
oh and my drinks are for you tonight.
god bless and RIP